Sunday, August 25, 2013

Kindergarten

It is crazy to think about how fast time goes.  How quickly babies turn into kids with personalities and opinions.  Tomorrow morning at this time I will be getting my daughter ready for her first day of Kindergarten! It is an official goodbye to her baby years, and its the new chapter of her life as a school aged kid.  From tomorrow for the next 13 years we will be up in the mornings getting ready for school and then she will be out on her own, paving her own way through life and the world.  I am so happy for my daughter to be growing up.  But it leaves a hole in my heart.  I have no baby anymore.  My oldest is hardly a baby anymore, and my son isnt here for me to baby.  
This time last year I imagined life differently.  I was 15 weeks pregnant and imagined pushing the baby in a stroller to drop her off at school in the morning.  I planned on coming home, cleaning then sitting down to play with the baby as I worked on some homework. Instead after I drop her off at school I will be coming home to an empty house.  No child running around making noise and messes.  It is a much different thing then I planned for.  I am so happy for my daughter, but at the same time it brings up so much in me about how much I am missing Emery.



Tuesday, August 6, 2013

6 months of dragonflies

It has been 6 months since the one day I got to spend with my son in my arms.  6 months have flown by and dragged at the same time.  It feels like 6 years and 6 days at the same time.  I miss my son every day, but I am so thankful for all the dragonflies I have seen.  Can you believe 6 months with at least 1 new dragonfly every day?  That is 182 new dragonflies, how lucky am I?  I have seen them in all sorts of ways, people have bought me dragonfly things, and I have bought some myself.  I have seen pictures online and friends have taken their own pictures for me.  Every time I see one I smile, its my way of assuring myself he is ok, I cant shake the feeling that HE is the one sending them to me.  I love my little bug so much and thought I would share some of the dragonflies I have seen over the past 6 months.  I don't have pictures of every one I have seen...but I do have quite a lot :)